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2011-03-10T10:15:00.001+08:00

iPhone Apps - photography

2011-03-07T16:03:00.009+08:00

Lately i've been browsing more FREE iphone apps and most of it is related with photography. so far i have 12 photography apps downloaded onto my iphone4...:)

the latest one is 'Pudding Camera' which the setting language is korean, & i found it quite cool! it has 8 type of lomo cam with 8 different polarizer/filter..

here are some of the results:

the other app tht i liked most is instagram...which i can edit & post on-the-go also...u can see some of the photos i took using instagram here:

Before

After

Before

After

My Mya 26th Feb, 2011

2011-02-28T09:27:00.002+08:00

isnt she's a big girl already? pejam celik - pejam celik mya dh 6 thn..huhu..pengalaman melahirkan mya 6 years ago adlh one of the most precious moment i ever had and syukur pd Allah atas kurniaanNya...and now she;s so excited for the arrival of her new sister/brother (gender has yet to be known at ths moment) :)

Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya...aminnnn

ICoLIS 2010 -due posting..

2010-11-26T20:06:00.007+08:00

My goodness!!...i jst noticed tht i still have draft post which i havent complete and post it on my blog. below is my draft which i did & saved as of 26th of Nov, 2011 (almost 3 months ago!!).

anyway, i jst posted the draft without any editing and add up on the last part with few photos. u might find this post a lil bit boring...so..here it goes! ;)

--------------------- start here----

Last posting i promised to update my blog with mini report of my experience attending the ICoLIS 2010...unfortunately i delayed it till today which is 2 weeks after! delaying things! it is sooooo ME! huhuh my bad! memang dh rasa melambatkan or melekakan pekerjaan adalah sinonim sgt dgn diriku...MasyaAllah...x tau dh aper nk jadi dgn hamba Allah nih.

well actually the day after the conference i was really excited to do simple write up about what i felt & experienced during the 2-day input & info sharing, but each time whenever i get to be online, first thing that i will do is checking my facebook, twitter & 2 emails. once i get carried away with the so-called social site with most-number-of-users-globally, i tend to forget everything tht i had plan of the day!!!..well twitter is my most-update non related with my social activity feed...i simply use it as to keep updated with the current news on almost EVERYTHING!

anyhoww...am still trying to minimize my daily time on both of these tools! as my thesis deadline is jst around the corner! and i hv yet to submit ANY complete chapter to my sv! YA ALLAH...please give me strength to do this i the last minute! (yup, that's my style--> a-last-thrilled-minute-job).

ok, back to the ICoLIS2010...actually during the conference i have tweeted bout things happened but not in a details & reflection manner...jst as an update on who's presenting what & what's not..so if your searching for those tweets, use this hastag #IC0LIS2010. but i guess the highlight of the conference were more one Open Access Issue...which am personally not really into it in the big picture. but somehow interested with the issue where there are institutionals & professionals who still have restricted their mindset into this open access especially when it comes to THESES & DISSERTATION. " however, am glad tht i am one of UM students where they already have taken an initiatives to make selected theses & dissertation available online and downloaded via this link http://dspace.fsktm.um.edu.my/.

photos from the events by the organizer can be reached here.

and here is the link photo of me during the Q&A session on the last day of the event! :)

xoxo,

ladyhonam

blog update

2010-11-08T23:08:00.002+08:00

susah nya nak update blog at least every week! even every month pun mcm susah...maybe dh ketandusan idea...but anyway, i hope i could get myself back as a frequent blogger. plus i wanted to practice my writing whether it is in BM or English. i think i'll try to restart with this coming event which is called ICoLIS 2010. it's a 2-day event which happen tomorrow & day after.

at the same time am trying to tweet the updates throughout the event....seeing tweets by those overseas librarian on their local event really inspired me. they shared the info almost as latest & accurate as possible!!! i hope i can do tht as well...

that's all

see u in the next update with photos (i hope! :P)

first try using blogMe app

2010-11-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

mya is missing her daddy

CUCI the Musical 2

2010-08-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

Finally, my loved one secured 3 seats for us at IB. the tickets are selling extremely FAST! the minute we refresh the page and try to check better seats & price, those seats were gone! and we end up buying tickets worth of rm128 each! and the show will be on Sunday 8th August,2010 8:30pm. we missed the first one and really looking forward for this coming show! heard all positives feedback frm friends who watched it and we'r hoping the best from the show...:D

July - month of frustration

2010-07-23T23:51:00.003+08:00

Been in hiatus (for blog only) about 3 months...maybe because facebooking...which it is consider as a micro-blogging tools as well...

...July is jst not my good month...:( -sigh- due to:

1- unable to reach my set target of submitting my completed thesis draft (5 chapters)

2- submitted only 2 chapters therefore cant apply for wave fees

3- hv to pay rm837 for ths sem (due to reason no 2)

4- still cant really get my thinking hat onto chapter 2 the literature review..

5- no photoshoot outing

anyway, to cheer me up...i reupload my lil girl pic which was taken last month. so here it goes..

Pelita

2010-04-19T19:43:00.002+08:00

Am still struggling to do my Chapter 1 & 2 of my thesis.
Last week, i havent get myself back on the database. i really need person to help me with the database but cant afford to pay much for such job.(another 2000 plus biblios to clean up!)
feeling so depressed as have nothing much to achieve in my project. sometimes distracted by houseworks, but i think most of the time by those updates in twitter....(not to forget my facebook notification) because i felt guilty if i dont have at least an info about librarianship and information literacy a day(yes it is related with my thesis). but of course other updates that non-related with my thesis dragged myself to get to know deeper about it especially politics! :P dont worry am not a politic junkie! :D

today, i got this link to this video via one of twitters tht i follow cant remember his name, but i know he's one of Hujan's fan...and i search for the lyric as well.
so enjoy this and sing along with the lyric!

A.P.I- Pelita (Lagu Tema Hooperz)

A.P.I- Pelita(Lagu Tema Hooperz)
Verse_1
Tak pernah sesaat daku meragui
apa yang telah daku temui
slama ini,
Verse_2
Tak pernah sesaat daku menyesali,
apa yang telah aku nikmati,
apa ku alami,
slagi hayat di kandung badan,
Korus:
Takkan ku menyerah kalah,
walau mimpi ku musnah,
harapan ku hancur,
sayapku patah,
kan ku pancarkan cahaya,
seperti pelita ke srata dunia,
yang gelap gelita
sehingga hembusan nafas
yang terakhir.
Verse_3
tak pernah sesaat ku mencurigai,
apa yg telah aku kecapi,
stakat ini,
Verse_4
tiba saatnya kan ku tangisi,
pada yang pergi, takkan kembali
Kembali lagi,
ulang Korus.
Bridge:
Slagi jasadku belum terkubur!
Slagi tubuhku, belum ditimpa uzur!
pantang datuk nenek moyangku,
Berundur!
Ulang Korus x 2
Akan Ku Pancar Cahaya Seperti Pelita,
Ke Srata Dunia,
Seperti Cahaya…….

20 things that happen in 1 minute!

2010-03-26T08:22:00.003+08:00

While browsing the PLA (Public Library Association) page, i was linked to another interesting web - onlineeducation.net and i found a number of quite interesting image created by the web owner. one of it is this one - (plz pay attention to the bottom part of the image about food throwing & starving...) :

Created by Online Education

dissertation & fried fish

2010-03-17T18:02:00.004+08:00

so far i havent start to draft my chapter 1. i already has list of point to be included but when i started to write something, my mind seems cant work at getting the words to be typed at Ms Word, hence i still stuck at the list of points. so i continue with importing the thousands of biblios from the online databases to endnote.

i tried to keep the motivation as high as i could by reading more about how to do thesis/dissertation...and i landed myself that this site, which i think quite informative for those who never done any thesis/dissertation writing. 'Writing The Thesis' by Mark C. Griffin, though most part of the article is about writing for PhD thesis, i think it is still relevant for master thesis...one part i like most is about writing a draft, where the author included another reading material for reference:

Joe Wolfe (How to Write a Ph.D. Thesis) offers the following observations in regard to the editorial process:

"As you write your thesis, your scientific writing is almost certain to improve. Even for native speakers of English who write very well in other styles, one notices an enormous improvement in the first drafts from the first to the last chapter written. The process of writing the thesis is like a course in scientific writing, and in that sense each chapter is like an assignment in which you are taught, but not assessed. Remember, only the final draft is assessed: the more comments your adviser adds to first or second draft, the better."

well, that's about my study. on the other side of my world of course most of it about my daughter who's have lots of questions playing around her mind asking for answers (and of course her mom would be the first person to know what the question is..). last night when we had dinner which one of the meal was fried fish, mya asked me this one simple question:

mya: ma, why is the fish died?

(refering to the helplessly but eatable fried fish on the plate which i was eating not her)

me: because the fish was no longer in the sea water, it cannot live elsewhere than sea...(my mind was equip with the taxanomy of the fish that breath using its gills etc..and hoping there's no 'why' question following the answer)

mya: NO! you're wrong! it is because you already FRIED the FISH!

me: ~almost choked on fish that i was eating!~ and therefore CASE closed!

xoxo,

ladyhonam

p/s: picture source -http://shashinki.com/blog/2008/02/25/fried-fish/

Titiwangsa

2010-03-08T10:30:00.005+08:00

It's been a month....no update for this blog. since i have been quite busy with my thesis...(not that too busy lah..) and my lil gurl some more...the mood of posting new thing in the blog doesnt come out as first time i'm blogging...so short to say NO IDEA :P

anyway, yesterday mya had a very tiring yet fun day outing at tasik titiwangsa which jst few minutes from our place. she's been asking & begging to go there since last 2 week! last week we went to sunway lagoon (or lalagun as what mya pronouce it). and the sunburn mark still there at my shoulder! huhuhuu....

so anyway, mya had promised to be my 'model' b4 she get herself sweat at the kids playground....as it's been quite long time i didnt got my D80 on capturing good moments..and so, here's are few photos of my lil gurl posing at tasik titiwangsa....enjoy! (and do leave a comment if u like it or dont like it)

mya on the swing!

pose darling! yes, mama luv it!

and pose some more!

while excitedly capturing mya in action at the playground, i saw this lil cute kid sitting at one of the slide helplessly...

signing off!

xoxo

ladyhonam.

Sal's engagement @ Sg Buloh

2010-01-13T22:08:00.005+08:00

I supposed to blog this month ago! but btw, there's nothing such 'too late' so, here goes the story.

i was 'hired' by Sal as her photographer of the day. can consider this as my first engagement photoshoot assignment. it was her big day even though it was celebrated as simple as she planned. but we really had fun that day as most of us gathering except for nanim! - it's ur lose nanim! :P

me & Emi was arrived bit late, and by the time we reached sal's house, sara - the makeup artist was there already doing her task - aper lagi make up la...:P. 10 mins after, nad was there with her 2 lil sisters...and she started her setting up for hantaran right away....tht time was about 12.15pm..if im not mistaken laa...

seriously i felt quite unclear of what i need to shoot...but luckily with friends like emi & nad..they gave some ideas on what i should capture on other than the subject herself (Sal, of course). anyway, here some of my fav photos which i uploaded in my facebook:

original compo - using 50mm lense

cropped & minor edited using picnik.com

the ladies - from left Sara (make up), Nad (Hantaran), Sal (the lady boss), me (photo) & Emi (advisor?)

kids photo

2009-12-09T17:42:00.004+08:00

actually this photo session was done a day after my final exam (which was a month past) and i was excited for the session. so i brought along my fren Iz to help me with the kids. i was just helping my fren who's her mother running a nursery/kindy at Taman permata. kids of 5-6 years of age are mostly love camera (i guess by the way they follow our instruction) and they even excited to see the outcome once i pushed the shutter...(which this make the session drag from 1 hr to 2 hrs long :D) but they are all nice kid.

so here are my 2 fav photos that i managed to do minor edit (which i jst edited it few minutes ago) using picnik.com. am not a PS fan really...:D

i prefer to capture their candid moment rather than a well-posing

they were asked to act like they're gossiping with each other, but they cant help laughing instead of the acting.

i have more nice (i think nice lah) photos in the same folder but i don't feel like editing all of them...so i have to choose only two for the blog.

p/s:i thought i have no motivation to post a blog today...but accidently found this folder of photos which i never touch since then...:D . hope you like them. please drop me a comment if you have good / creative ideas in taking kids photos...thx in advance! :D

motivation...where are you?

2009-12-09T13:34:00.003+08:00

yes, that's what i need right now. thinking of where to start, how to do it and manage time for it. havent started my proposal since end of november. even though target time has been set up and scheduled by i still feel demotivated of doing it now especially it's end of the year! where what most ppl think is 'holiday!'.

and i dont hv ideas of what to post in this blog because i dont have the motivation...

-sigh-

ladyhonam - demotivated mode

perkataan haram

2009-11-24T17:27:00.004+08:00

sbg parent, memang normal that we teach our kids from not saying negative words, simple to say is to curse. words like 'bodo', 'babi', 'celaka', 'shit', and all the f words memang perlu dipantau by parents khuatir jadi kebiasaan budak2 bila membesar.

mya is very alert bila mama or daddy terrlepas cakap with those words...and now i need to 'spell' the curse words instead of saying it directly like "b.o.d.o na juar drebar merce ya ehs!" or twist the words to sth else like "shoot! main mcm s.i.a.l jak!"...

tapi rasanyer now mya can spell some words...so i need to use more new words to replace those.

tetapi, blog kali ni bukan nak crita how to teach kid how to curse in a good manner....nooo....tp jst nak share this story happened last nite. perasan tak buletin tv3 last nite (or was it last 2 nites?) pasal kandang babi kat kpg per tah...tak ingat. so of course the newscaster akan sebut this word 'babi' over n over again....

pemberita: Isu pembinaan kandang babi di kpg x. (reading the title)..

mya: MAAAAAAA!!! dier sebut 'babi' ma!!!

mama: (try hard to focus on her reading & without looking at the girl) aah lah...tak boleh kan mya...eieiee report polis lah mya sbb dier sebut 'b.a.b.i' (of course i spell this fret caught by mya of saying it).

pemberita: (continue reading the news)...bla..bla...'babi'....bla...bla..bla...'babi'...la..bla...'babi. (well what do u expect if the title is about 'babi'? )

selagi pemberita sebut tht word...selagi itulah si mya kept bothering me of saying that 'tak boleh sebut 'babi' lah"...aduyaiiii...nasib baik jst for a few minutes...dibuat nyer ader rancangan 360 cerita pasal babi for an hour???? poning kapla den nak dgr!!

i wonder what is happen to the word 'khinzir' ? they dont use such word anymore nowadays?

p/s: i need to find more books about how to educate kids

Pose

2009-11-23T11:22:00.004+08:00

Last saturday, Kak Ima (mya's babysitter cum mak angkat) called and asked if mya'd like to join them for 2 wedding invitation. without any hesitation mya said "OK!"...and there she started packing her bag with books & colors (these items are a-must items to bring whereever she goes out). and 5 mins later, she done with her nice clothes on, bag & there we waiting for Kak ima to call back to pick her up. while waiting....i grab my camera & shoot her pose...so here are her lovely pose that i managed to capture b4 she distracted by the Barneys show on tv 5 min after. :D

week of assignments..

2009-11-02T11:03:00.003+08:00

Last nite my group partner jst done the final editing of our assignment 3 (Research Foundation) and he submitted already the documentation. what a relief....! so i need to move on to my final (i repeat...FINAL...) assignment for the same course which is 3 research topic with brief proposal which i need to submit by this week...probably wednesday.

serious...tension giler...n fatigue of staying up late for 4 days in a row...but i know i have to complete this...n make sure my mind is ready for the exam ....insyaAllah...

that's it for today...

here is photo that cheer me up a lil bit today...which i found from my old hard disk..

xoxo

ladyhonam

A story worth sharing

2009-10-09T10:44:00.005+08:00

I got this forwarded-email from my sister, and it is really touch my heart and was in tears when reading it. Whoever the writer is thank you for the story...-sob-sob...~~so here goes the story which is really worth sharing (as stated in the email's subject).

A story worth sharing

我的妻子因為意外事故離開我身邊已經四年了，我想，妻子留下不會做任何家事的我和孩子，她的心有何等難過呢？我也因為無法兼顧父母雙親的角色而感到挫折。有一天我為了出差，清晨趕出門，無法將孩子打點好就得離開家，正巧前一天有剩下的飯，我熱了蒸蛋，向還沒有睡醒的孩子交代一聲，就出門去了。

4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder, how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.

為了照顧好孩子飲食三餐的事，我也無力把自己的工作做好。有一天晚上回到家，我只是很簡短地和孩子打個招呼，就因為身體疲累，不想吃晚餐，脫掉西裝之後就直接往床上躺下。就在那個時候，砰的一聲，紅色的湯汁跟泡麵瞬時弄髒了床單和被單，原來有碗泡麵在棉被裡！這小子真是的，說時遲那時快，我即時拿起一個衣架，跑出去，往正玩著玩具的兒子的屁股就打，因為我實在是太生氣了，所以不停地打他。但就在這個時候，他邊啜泣邊說了一段話，使我停了下來。

With the double r oles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!

Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation:

兒子告訴我說：「飯鍋裡的飯早上已經吃完了，晚餐在幼稚園吃了，但是到了晚上，爸爸還不回來，我就在櫥櫃的抽屜裡找到了泡麵。可是我想到爸爸說不能亂動瓦斯爐，所以我就打開洗澡的水龍頭，用熱水泡了泡麵，一個自己吃，另一個想留給爸爸吃。因為怕泡麵涼掉，所以我就把它放在棉被裡，等你回來。可是因為我正在玩向朋友借來的玩具，所以忘了跟爸爸講。」

"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."

我不想讓兒子看到我在流淚，所以衝到? ~手間，將水龍頭打開，大聲地哭。過了一陣子之後，我打起精神來，一面哄著兒子，一面也在他屁股上擦藥，讓他上床睡覺。當我清理好泡麵弄髒的床單和棉被後，打開兒子的房門一看，發現他仍舊發出哭泣聲，手裡還拿著媽媽的照片。我把頭靠在房門站了許久，看著這一幕。

At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.

自從在一年前發生這件事之後，我為了扮演好媽媽的角色，更加用心地去照顧他。現在兒子快七歲了，不久後就要從幼稚園畢業，進入國小讀書。慶幸的是，兒子在這段時間毫無陰影，很開朗地成長。

A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.

就在不久前，我再一次打孩子，因為幼稚園來電話說，兒子沒有去學校，我心裡覺得很不安，所以早退回家，在整個社區裡大聲地喊他的名字，卻是遍尋不著。後來在文具店的門?f，看見他站在電玩的前面，於是我很生氣，又開始一直打他。兒子並沒有說出任何的解釋，只說了聲對不起。後來我才知道，原來剛好是幼稚園要邀請媽媽去
看才藝表演的日子。

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....

發生這些事的幾天後，兒子回家說，他在幼稚園裡學了寫字，從此他經常關在自己的房間裡不出來，很認真地寫字。我看到兒子這個樣子，想到妻子在天國也一定會因為看到他這樣而微笑，我就無法忍住淚水。

Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!

時間很快，又過了一年，到了冬天，街頭上都在播放著聖誕節的歌曲，我的兒子卻又闖了一個禍。我正要下班的時候，接到一通社區郵局的電話，說我兒子把一綑沒有寫地址的信，惡作劇? a放在郵筒裡。每年到了年底，正是郵局最忙碌的時候，所以這對他們造成很大的困擾。雖然我已決定不再打孩子，但在急忙趕回家後，叫了兒子來，我又忍不住痛打他一頓。兒子這一次只是說他做錯了，卻沒有講出任何理由。我把他推到一個角落，不管了，自個兒跑到郵局領回那一綑惡作劇的信。我把信丟到他眼前說：「你為什麼要這樣惡作劇？」兒子哭著回答說：「這些信是我要寄給媽媽的。」

Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in every passer-by...Christmas carols and frantic shoppers....but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.

當時我的眼眶紅了起來，心裡很激動，但是因為在兒子面前，所以我盡量隱忍住沒有表現出來。我接著問他：「那麼，為什麼一次寄這麼多信呢？」兒子回答說：「以前我要把信投進去的時候，因為個兒太矮，所以沒辦法投入，但是最近我再去郵筒時，已經搆得到了，所以我就把以前沒有寄的，一次全部都投進入了。」

My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."

我聽了以後，心中一片茫然，不知道該對孩子說什麼話。過了不久以後，我就跟他說：「媽媽現在在天上，以後你寫完信，把信燒了，就能送到天國去。」等孩子睡著之後，我到外面燒了那些信。我很好奇到底孩子想跟媽媽說些什麼，所以讀了其中的幾封信。

After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say....

I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help opening the letter before they turn to ash.

而當中有一封信攪動了我的心。

And one of the letters broke my heart....

親愛的媽媽：
我很想念你！媽媽，今天在幼稚園有才藝表演，但是因為我沒有媽媽，所以沒有去參加，我也沒有告訴爸爸，怕爸爸會想念媽媽。爸爸到處去找我，但我為了讓爸爸看到我很開心的樣子，所以故意坐在電動玩具面前，雖然爸爸罵我，但是我到最後也沒有告訴他原因。媽媽，我每? 捖ㄛ搢鴘赤谷]為想念媽媽而哭泣，我想爸爸也跟我一樣，很想念媽媽吧！但是，媽，我現在已經記不清楚你的臉。媽媽，請你讓我在夢中，再一次能夠看到你的臉，好嗎？聽說把想念的人的照片放在懷裡睡覺，就會夢到那個人。可是，媽媽，為什麼你沒有出現在我的夢裡呢？」

Dear Mummy,

I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?

讀完這封信以後，我就開始嚎啕大哭。到底什麼時候，我才能填補妻子的空位呢？

After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....

給已經結婚的女同事：

不要加太多班，工作做不完，一定是公司的某些地方出問題了，一定要將問題反應給妳的老闆，一直加班也不見的有用的，請務必要照顧自己的身體，才可以好好疼惜妳的小寶貝。

For the females with children:

Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be some kind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of yo ur little precious.

給已經結婚的男同事：

不要喝太多酒，不要抽太多煙，請問我們的生意，我們的客戶，有比我們的身體重要嗎？
一定要想一想，有沒有辦法做到客人非我們不行，我們的差異化在哪裡，我們是否真的懂客人的心，這比拼命喝酒，還重要，請務必要照顧自己的身體，才可以好好疼? 予p的小寶貝和你的愛人。

For the married men:

Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.

Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable.

Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.

給還沒有結婚的男同事和女同事：

For those singles out there:

Beauty lies in loving yourself first.

With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.
美其實是從愛自己的身體開始 --（蔣勳，身體美學）。
無入而不自得 -- （孔子）。

妳/你們一定要很自在，工作才能做的好，如果工作讓你/ 妳們的心情做的很辛苦，代表的是我們的公司不夠聰明，那也是公司什麼地方不對了，要勇敢的說出來，不要讓不聰明的工作與老闆，傷害了妳/你們的身體。

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Assignment..

2009-09-30T02:57:00.002+08:00

it's 2.58am in the morning, and i still havent complete my assignment which is due today at 6pm. i really dont have mood to do it but by hook or by crook i need to finish it else i'll lose my 10% marks. and after this i need to focus on my mini research project - another assignment of my research foundation course by Dr Diljit. which the report is due on 22 oct same day with my final assignment - personal research proposal...huhuhu. Please Allah, give me strength & more ideas to do all this...Amin..

xoxo

-ladyhonam-

3.02am

Eid-Fitr 1430H / 2009

2009-09-24T22:38:00.010+08:00

Colourful cakes, biscuits, titbits, fruits, fashionable malay costumes...all these u can enjoy & see it during Raya fest...but what we will miss most once it end is the precious moments meeting our loved one - be it our parents, grandparents , siblings, kids, cousins, nieces & nephews, uncles & aunts.

So, here are some of my favourite photos of the week...enjoy!

Niece - Irish Syuhada

Friends' daughter - Nayli

Niece - Nazirah

Last but not least - my lil gurl Mya

Try mobile posting

2009-09-20T03:12:00.000+08:00

Hi, am trying to post this single line posting via mobile.

Xoxo
Nurha
Sent from my iPhone

Sur-plaisee!

2009-09-02T05:46:00.006+08:00

Yesterday she refused to go to school -reason - "i hurt my thumb". and yes she hurt her thumb while playing at Hartz yesterday...so excuse was accepted. She stayed at home the whole day n i didnt send her to her school & her babysitter's house. and as usual i let her do whatever 'mess' she wanted to do as long as it's in her room. So i can do my own 'work' - online laaa what else.

I thought i can have my own peace because she seem so busy for the first 1 hour. after that she kept going in & out of her room jst to get my attention like -

- 'ma i want dugro & nani (refer to her milk & warmwater)', - this is not supposed to happen 1 hour of after her 1st milk shot.

-'ma, i want to sheeshee (pee) - ok..i accept this one..

-'ma, can u plz help me i want to watch 'koya' - refer to my Korea drama DVD "My sassy girl" - yes she likes this drama a lot ok!

-'maaaaaaaa, come here plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz' - i hate this part...she called me to come to her room jst to help her to reach an-inch-away-drawing book??!!! urghhh....i got pissed off (not much lah as she jst 4years old maa) and i told her not to disturb me for such thing like that...

and she went like "hehhehe....ok boss! i love u ma!" - and there i sat back & helpless....-sigh-

- and guess it was not jst like that...

SO i asked her to bring her stuff outside near my 'working place' and do her stuff next to me. and she was sooo happy ..why? because she got BIGGER PLACE TO MESS UP!!..fine...as long as i dont have to walk in & out her room!

since she loves to draw i gave her few pieces of my A4 papers and asked her to draw ME! which i guess that will let her to sit there drawing for quite a long time (and to keep her mouth shut as well hehe). AGAIN, i was wrong and she said "ma, i'm done! how to spell ur name?" Without looking at her i jst spell M.A.M.A and said "ok, if u done, now draw daddy" and happily she sat back and started drawing. few minutes later...."ma!, i'm done again! how to spell daddy?? "really? ok...that's fast lah mya...wowww ok...daddy = d.a.d.d.y"..(expressing my amaze face to her?which i think she loves tht most hahaha)..."hurm...then draw your baby janice" refer to her baby doll...and there she sat drawing quietly again and i didnt look at all the drawing as she stuck them onto her crayola whiteboard...

few moments later..."OK!!! done!! how to spell baby?" and then she wrote 'baby' somewhere on the drawing....andddd....owwhh i love this part when she said "maa, close your eyes" so i closed my eyes waiting for her to say...."SUR - PLAISE!!!! (surprise!)"

copyright by Mya

So, this is more or less - things that happen in my daily life if she was at home...guess i need to help her to polish & encourage her more toward real drawing & soon - painting. :D Maybe i'll bring her & her drawing kit to the zoo next time.

I wonder how will the elephant looks like in her drawing??? (hahaha cant help laughing evil-ly)

xoxo

http://ladyhonam.blogspot.com

Moof! Moof!

2009-09-01T12:32:00.005+08:00

Aahaha again ahh?? everyday wants to blog about mugs ahhh? aiyoo...mau muntah sudah woooo....but anyway, who cares! people have their own obssession! and i love m.u.g.s !!!
and those who would like to own cute mug design, do visit this new blog i created and let me know if you'd like them!

and here i present my 2 new mugs from Moof collection...ta daaaa!!

and the 2nd one chosen by my other half:-

Climb

2009-08-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

I love seeing my lil gurl singing this song. Owh only God knows how much she lovesss watching Hannah Montana the movie over & over again. and of course i do enjoy watching the movie with her. i hope Hannah's high energetic spirit will also flowing to my girl as she's growing up.
And so both of us really enjoy singing this song together 'The Climb' by Miley Cyrus
:D

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Found

2009-08-30T22:34:00.005+08:00

It's a very shocked news but it's not possible..God has all the fate, and we can jst pray for the very good fate to happen to us. I felt so glad to have such news that a kidnapped girl was found after 18 years!! but it's a very sad thing to know that she was grew up in a backyard tent and was raped and had 2 children.

Let's us pray & hope that our missing kids (Sharlini & other cases) will be found safe & sound.Amin.

Greenies

2009-08-27T00:14:00.001+08:00

I love my new mug bought some times last week. not to say that i support the brand which might lead ppl to say 'dont support Israel product' but the interest of collecting those customized mugs (n pray that the money i paid will not go to whatever association related with Israel's rejim). Plus i'll get a discount of RM2 for any beverage if i use my own mug at any of Starbucks. but all-in-all using mug can help in keeping our earth GREEN!

anyway, last nite i done with my first assignment presentation of my Digital Library class -woohooo!!!-. I thought i will present it next week, luckily i check the e-learning and jst realised that i have the possibility of presenting it last nite, so i got working on it from the morning till 5.30pm! and that makes me came late to class plus driving thru a massive traffic jam due to heavy rain?? i thought i can reach my faculty in 20 minutes as of tht time there's no sign of bad weather before i drive out frm the apartment. but ya it's all God will n i really have to go thru with it and pray that nothing bad will happen as i cant hardly see the road while driving....pretty bad huh...and driving 20-30km/h is not really gonna get me to the faculty in 20minutes!!! and i finally safely reach there by 6.40pm for my 6pm class. but luckily my classmate said the lecturer only started the class about 6.20pm. hope i'm not missing so much in that 20minutes late.

So what is the thing tht makes me happy today? hehe...please see my second para, line 1. heheh jst kid..that is one of it...but the other is...i've reconnected to my other long lost friend last week- my x-schoolmate, x-classmate in matrix, x-unimate!! :D

xoxo

Ladyhonam

Fasting

2009-08-24T22:54:00.007+08:00

Alhamdullilah syukur to Allah SWT for giving me another Ramadhan and hopefully can celebrate Syawal with my family in a His blessful and harmony...InsyaAllah..

today is the 3rd day the M'sia Mulims perform their fasting i'badah and Alhamdullilah the haze is getting lesser and H1N1 is still undercontrol eventhough the news announced it was another H1N1 death making it a total of 69 death in Msia (as of today 9am).

Ramadan -a month of obligatory daily fasting in Islam is the ninth month in the Islamic lunar calendar. Daily fasts begin at dawn and end with sunset. Special nightly prayers called, Taraweeh prayers are held. The entire Quran is recited in these prayers in Mosques all around the world. This month provides an opportunity for Muslims to get closer to God. This is a month when a Muslim should try to:

	See not what displeases Allah
	Speak no evil
	Hear no evil
	Do no evil Look to Allah with fear and hope

"O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those before you, that you may become God-fearing." (The Quran, 2:183) (Source: Islam101.com)

Semoga Allah menerima amal ibadah kita dibulan Ramadhan ini dan juga diringankan beban derita saudara Islam kita yg menjadi mangsa perang di luar sana...Amin..

This picture was the last picture taken of our complete family, we've been losing our beloved brother (sitting front with purple Baju Melayu) for 2 years now. May Allah bless his soul..Al-Fatihah...

p/s: to my frens, beringat-ingatlah bila berbelanja di Bazaar Ramadhan...elakkan pembaziran...:D Selamat Berpuasa!

Jewels

2009-08-12T10:15:00.002+08:00

thinking of my long lost friends that i meet via all those kind of social-networking available on the net. this truly makes me happy...

Sketch

2009-08-10T19:50:00.004+08:00

Mya came to me once i woke up from my afternoon nap and showed me this drawing by her:

i scrutinized it while looking at a toy next to her..which is famously known by almost all kids in this world! Not too fast with my assumption as i never knew spongebob has a kid or vice versa ....so i asked her few questions:

me: Nice one! who's that?

Mya: Mama & mya laaa...

me: ic...which one is mama & which one mya?

Mya: mama pegang bunga, mya budak kecik..(momma with the flower & mya the small one)

me: Why mama ada bunga? (why momma has a flower with me? )

Mya: Daddy kasi la! (Daddy gave it to u!) --> i remember last time i got flower from my hubby was during my convocation day..:P

last question:

me: why we are in square shape?

Mya: sbb mcm spongebobb.... (so we're look like a-spongebob?)

mya's sketch - 10th Aug, 2009 - 4yrs 7mths

Mugs

2009-08-10T05:39:00.005+08:00

I l.o.v.e MUGS!!! especially the custom-made one...since i was in schools i collected a number of mugs, but of course my family were using it...n so now only 1 mug-survivor left which is my 'Telekom' mug that i got when i was in uni. after that i no longer was a-mug-collector until some times in last year i saw this collection of mugs (not a custome-made or corporate-gift mug) at one of mny favourite shopping mall in Damansara....n i goes like ' can i have this?' n start to point so many mugs n saying the same....but at the end i didnt buy them cuz my 'significant other' said "believe me, u dont really need them!"...yes he's a frugal kind of guy n i have to listen to him at tht moment...but hell NO, i'll be back to tht store again next time ~~without him knowing it~~...(haha-evil-laugh)

and..thing that makes me happy of the day....

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! A JCO mug!! buy 1 free 1 beverage...see? :D

First

2009-08-09T23:53:00.003+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

I've been creating so many blog but no posting been made...so i deleted all blogs that i created. tried so many names n feel not so me...n suddenly i remember my flickr page...so here i named it as it is....LadyHonam...

Y? during my school years i loved watching the Young & Dangerous movie series....the main character was named Chan Ho Nam (by Ekin Cheng) and his girlfriend was Smartie (So Ah Sai - cant remeber what was her name)...

n i used this name honamgirl for my YM id since 1998! n yes i still use it till now! :D

tell u what, i jst stop

here as of now cuz i dont really have any idea for my FISRT posting....and it is 12.00 am!!

nite2 chiao!

Thing that make me happy of the day....i bought this Floxy by Stella McCartney shoes!!! woohoo!!!